The visual is a hook, a way for the reader to be drawn into the story.
It's hard to push forward through the doubt and tempting to try to wait until you feel more confident, but the way to get more confident is to do the thing; confidence comes with experience.
Queer and trans narratives are so often revelation narratives that it's easy to forget there's a lot more to our lives than that.
Until you make your abstract goal more solid and figure out what makes it personally meaningful to you, it will keep losing out to shiny new ideas.
Surely you can write one word, even if it's "The" or "If" or "A". And if you've written one word, surely you can write another.
Voice is a skill to be developed, like any other writing skill. Give yourself permission to stretch it and challenge it and expand it and enhance it.
Can you see ways to redefine "enough" and put it within your reach? Can you see ways to feel like enough right now?
Today is the fifth Tuesday of the month, which means that my answer to this heartfelt letter is available exclusively to my Patreon patrons.
There is no absolution; there are no clear-cut rules that you can strictly follow and thereby relieve your anxiety. There is only you, doing your best.
When you incorporate your research into your story, do it with a light touch. Keep your protagonist's or narrator's perspective at the front of your mind; don't harp on the things that they will find unremarkable or irrelevant.